I don't know

I looked around my environment.
I didn’t know how can it became change in short time.
My memories still in my brain. My mood boaster still in my judgement.
 My moments with the other still I remember until now.
I cannot too respect to new environment.
For introduced my self I didn’t have enough courage. I don’t have ambition.
I just can to stay in here with calm and quite. When I looked my face, how ugly how screwy I am.
But, I just can to keep quite. I cannot do to anything that can give benefits.
I cannot to understand what is the purposes of life.
I just can cry when someone is angry to me.
 I just can feel disappointed when I make someone become crumbly.
I just can look outside but I cannot to do anything that make everyone around me feel better.
When I love someone I just can tell it inside my heart.
I don’t have ambition and courage again to do that. It’s so humiliate.